Yep. I am so so bored now. Nothing to do. Nothing other than taking care the kids of course.

I thought I want to watch CSI, but obviously, the kids having their good time at Channel 613. Sigh. So boring now. I wonder what else to do… that is why I spend my time here.. just typing away. Typing whatever comes to my mind. And guess what in my head now?

Wait, before I tell you all, have you read all my previous posting? Not yet? What the … you doing here? Hahaha. Sorry, just want to let that go. Well, about what’s in my head now, well about skin care stuff lah. What else. How to look more beautiful. How to get rid the black skin under my eyes. How to look beautiful again, not only to myself, but to my hubby and to my kids. Hahaha.

Just a short wish here. Merry .. oops, Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends and relative. Hope you have a good day and enjoy yourself.

Even it is on Sunday now and it is also supposed to be a festival to celebrate with the family, I honestly do not feel like it. You know why? Hubby is working till 8pm today!!!! I so hate his job. Here I am stuck with the kids, not so much of hating it, but regret cannot be with my hubby on this day. Sigh.

On another story, I am more worry with my son Josh coming big exam. Do you think the surrounding has any effect on the children acceptance of the subject being taught? I am just curious. I know studying at home for my son is really difficult. Somehow, for him, being at home is just play, eat and sleep. Wait I add watching TV and play computer.

I just want to let it out. I am not sure sometimes what I really want. I do know one thing, my children’s need. Milk, diapers and their foods.

Anyway, what about me? What is my need? Is wanting something like a full time nanny in the house is a need for me now? Is wanting to have all the nice shoes out there a need for me? Or is wanting to go out shopping with no limitation on what I can buy is a need to me – or is it just a mere wish?

I do know like right at this very moment, I want a nice, easy to use, dummy proof camcorder to capture all my kids behavior especially at weekends. Yea, thinking about it, I do want a camcorder. I just hate to story-telling my hubby when he comes back at night on what funny or sweet things his kids do to me. He always reply with an answer, “Serious? Really? You’re kidding, right?”. Like that. So if I have a camcorder, I just let him see it. Done. Haha.

Yeah, I just thought about this. Life is really shorter than anyone thinking. The moment you stop enjoying your life, you are already dead! Yeah. I think this is true – to some extent of course.

If you just busy working the heck out of yourself, ignoring your need and the life around you – you surely gonna die faster than the people who do nothing but enjoying their life out there. You know why? Well, there are so many reasons but one reason I know that can lead to your early funeral is by staying stagnant. Not moving your muscle. Thinking just by using yer brain … well still considered not moving. You die fat probably. Ooops. Serious friend. you need to exercise even though you are working. The best thing of course, go holidaying. Best for the mind and the body. [not so good in the financial dept though] but who cares. If you think it’s worth it, and I tell you, it is worth it, you will do anything to achieve it – I mean the money to finance your holiday shopping spree.

I saw this article in The New Sabah Times published on 23 January 2009. The heading attracted my attention and I can’t help but read the content from A to Z. Gosh!! I got scared of my life!

I’ve been asking myself since, what will I do and how will I react when this happen? I honestly do not know the answer. And why do I post this is simply want parents out there to share with me their experiences handling their child when they start to “CURSE”.

Kalu orang dewasa cursing, sinang mo tegur right? But how to tegur a child who doesn’t even know what they are doing????

Please, share with me and the rest of the parents as our guideline in future…TQ guys!!!

It was a wake up call after I read hubby’s latest post. I feel like someone has just slapped my face HARD! and I still can feel the pain.

I do not want to be hypocrite and says that I never scolded or hit or even speak harshly to my children coz I DO! And I don’t deny that I do pour all my efforts in my work just to please the Company- kena scolded kah, apakah, still I give my best- but when it comes to my own FAMILY, my children being a bit difficult pun I already hot, temper and so on. Oh man! I am a bad mommy, now I realise.

Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives

Am I too sensitive and emotional because I can easily cry? I cry when I watch movies, especially if it is a sad one but then again, I also cry when it is a romantic movie I can cry by looking at my children playing happily with their papa. I can cry when my best friends in trouble. I can cry when I saw someone rude to their parents or anyone. Like I say, I cry easily….but of course I cry quietly and far from being seen, oh well, only by hubby-some times!.

Then, a minute ago, I cry again when my nephew call me. “Aunty, please come to our house tonight yea..I wanted to celebrate daddy’s birthday…we wanted to give him surprise party.” and I feel so touch. I’m glad and happy that my brother’s children love him…again, tears drop from my eyes. Tears of happiness!

So, what’s wrong with me? Am I a cry mommy?or am I just too sensitive and emotional?Does this happen to anyone too?I love to know so that I know I am not ALONE

Losing someone close to us is not easy to handle especially when we know that we are not going to talk, to laugh, to joke, do things together and so on with that person. It hurts so much that we might not be able to control our sadness and what you really need during this painful period is comfort, love and courage in order to carry on.

What more the person you lose is your parents, your partner, your child, your siblings, your relatives or your good friend. The pain is really unbearable. I’ve been through that period and it is not easy to heal the feeling, the emptiness and great lost. But, with supports, love and courage given by others will make us strong to go on.

And that’s why, I can feel the sadness felt by chegu carol on the demise of her good friend. May God bless the soul of her friend and as for the family, be strong and condolence to them