Ya bah. Every day is the same as yesterday, the day before and I’m expecting the same also tomorrow. Sigh. Why can’t it just change for the better.

Can you sense my stress? To be honest, I’m longing for the days I do not have to worry about anything. Well, I do not mind worrying about children future wives … that is another good story to think about. Hahaha. Nope not that.

I am talking about my house. My financial. My look. My look and size. Yep. The last one need to think more in this days. Not getting younger you know. The more I think about my look, the more stress I be. Why every day is the same???

Now, to think about the coming days, even worries me. Hubby’s birthday coming up and I have nothing in my mind now on what to give or what to do. I always have something nice and surprises for him. he likes that. But not now. Sigh.

Sigh. So tired now. Just after work and a lot more work at home. Sigh. How come there never be enough of holiday?? Just thinking about it is tiring too.

Sigh. I need rest. I need my sleep. I wish I can just fall asleep now. But how come I am still thinking about my dirty kitchen. The laundry and once in a while that ugly on the mirror when I look at.

I am FAT!!!! I HATE IT. Hubby said I look “OK ja” but I know it is not!! One thing more, I do not trust the diet pill thing. But if its available now, maybe I just swallow one pill and just see the immediate result. If any. Sigh. I am so tired. I am so stress… and and, I’m GETTING OLDDDDDDDD!!!!

There are 3 hyper kids who live in a small house somewhere in Penampang. These kids are age 5 and 2 years. The eldest never stop talking, running, jumping unless he’s asleep. The twins, well, how should I say…never stop arguing and fighting for toys, food, attention etc…the small house is just like a “pub” full of noise except on certain time (nap time!)

The situation continues 24/7. Wondering about the parents? The parents are stress to the max (but still love their children very much) and been telling to each other “better treasure this moment darling, soon they all will grow up and we will be on our own..” and both husband and wife struggle to cope with these 3 hyper kids.

And I’m sure, we are not alone facing a situation like this. Most of us, parents, are facing the same situation. It is not easy but I know, we will survive!!!! Yeah!!! Kita BOLEH!!! (Jadi…kalau tidak boleh, what? Lock our kids in the metal buildings? Of course NOT….we just keep on trying, right?

Do you know that it is so hard for me to write a simple post? Of course you don’t, silly me, 

A simple post like this one takes me ages to finish. Why? One, I delete again and again the sentences that I type thinking this is not how it suppose to be written (just like this sentence, I’ve retype it for more than 5 times that in the end I give up and let it be!).

Two, after a sentence, I can’t think of what to write next or how should I continue to make it connected (r u following me what I’m trying to say here? can’t blame u if u r not

And lastly, I guess I’m not creative and not a story teller and definitely not good in writing hahaha..coz if not I won’t be writing nonsense here, instead, I will be rumbling and talking non stop about the Outer Banks rentals but sadly…

Why do I start blogging in the first place? Oh ya, because of hubby then I become addicted to it then after a while, I become bored and eventually become too lazy to blog. But I love reading others blog though

If you happen to drop by and notice there is a new post in my blog after being dead for ages, it is because I can’t stand hubby complaining and reminding me the money I wasted

I know, I know. I shouldn’t waste the money hubby invested in my blog what more the money that this blog making right? So here I am mumbling nonsense early in the morning just to get done what have to be done and of course, to stop the reminder hubby put on my handphone, sigh….

But tell me, who will be so hard working and cracking their head to think what to share what more to talk about GMAT prep. I can’t think!!! All I do was staring at hubby laptop and sit like a barbie doll

I honestly say this is so tiring but despite all that shouting, running and gasping for air, I truly enjoyed it.

I hope I have time again to do this. I mean weekend with hubby. Just look at their faces. Even I am stress with work in the office, to see their faces like this, smiling, laughing, shouting, sweating, you name it. I just love the moment. I wish hubby has a different job, different working hour or even better just stay at home doing his online business. The kids sure love it and I love it too

Yeah. Vacation coming up. Well, not in this month ok. Hopefully by next month. Hopefully if my kind hearted Boss will let me go for it. wink wink.

To be honest, it is not entirely for me or even for hubby. Hubby gone enough holidaying already. Hahaha. You know for his Radio Control Racing outstation – that’s considered holidaying too. Haha.

Anyway, the vacation is actually a long overdue trip for my son Josh. You know. He keep saying, “Let’s go KL, Mommy, Papa.” Don’t know how many times already. When we asked him where is KL, he told us, the one with aeroplanes – the airport he means. Hahaha. So you know. I kind of pity him. So we decided to bring him far away. Over The Sea where it requires all of us to go aboard the aeroplane and just fly away. He loves that. I’ve seen him excited when on his first air travel to Tawau, he was so excited. That actually worries me for this long journey!!!

Yeah, I want to do a business. I don’t know what type of business but I want to do it. Don’t laugh. At least I am thinking about it. Got to start from somewhere, you know

On my very limited spare times, I manage to read a few articles on doing business. Either through real on the ground type of business or the more safe, lesser investment type, the online business. Well, as you probably can guess, doing the real business like the ground type requires lot of investments. Not enough with the financing part, you even required to do lots of other things .. that need my movement. So not me – as a mother of very hyper active boys [and hubby too ] So that’s out. Or maybe I will consider it if I don’t have to move from my house.

What about the online business? Well this is the interesting part. All I have to do is find what I am going to sell or give service on. It is not easy but it is much lower risk than the previous mention business. I thought about a few things to do with online business. I will only share with you all when it’s ready.