I can feel her sadness and her unhappiness even though she’s smiling, jokes and does all the stuffs she normally do without showing her sadness. But I know, deep down in her heart, she’s sad. So sad but just do not want to show it, even to me *sigh*

It is a big decision she made, I know. I told her she has my full support, my understanding, my love, no matter what she decides. I hope her sadness will go away soon and get back to herself again. I wish I can take away the pain from her … If only it is as easy as buying her ellipticals I would have done that much more earlier..but this is just not that easy …