It was a wake up call after I read hubby’s latest post. I feel like someone has just slapped my face HARD! and I still can feel the pain.

I do not want to be hypocrite and says that I never scolded or hit or even speak harshly to my children coz I DO! And I don’t deny that I do pour all my efforts in my work just to please the Company- kena scolded kah, apakah, still I give my best- but when it comes to my own FAMILY, my children being a bit difficult pun I already hot, temper and so on. Oh man! I am a bad mommy, now I realise.

Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives

How true this is right? I hope I will have the strength to change for a better for the sack of my family. I hope I can be more patient when dealing with my children from this moment onwards and hope this feeling of guilt for treating them bad sometimes will remain in my heart so that I can be reminded of how IMPORTANT they are to me.

This post has 10 comments.

  1. massy
    20 Jun 08
    1:47 pm

    >..<

  2. chinnee
    22 Jun 08
    9:27 am

    really yeah…to friends and people in office, we can tolerate but with family, sometimes really boil our blood :(

  3. jppmom
    23 Jun 08
    4:38 pm

    @massy -

    >..<

    massy- >..<

    @chinnee -

    really yeah…to friends and people in office, we can tolerate but with family, sometimes really boil our blood :(

    chinnee- very true :(

  4. jess
    23 Jun 08
    5:43 pm

    haha…agreed with chinnee..Sometimes I really get angry with my only daughter.. but after that, really feel so guilty

  5. Shemah
    25 Jun 08
    2:40 am

    Hi mamaJ!

    Sorry long time didn’t drop by.. anyways, I just read the link over at papaJ’s blog. Aduiii.. sedih nya my hati .. I am guilty of this too.. kadang2 kalau marah tu ikutkan hati terlampau sampai hati anak tu ndak sedar sudah, how painful it must be for my Buddy sometimes. And then they are sooo forgiving lagi. We say sorry immediately they say it’s okay..

    Thanks for the eye opener.. I really needed to read that..

  6. kaDusMama
    27 Jun 08
    10:51 am

    Hi Jppmom..
    My 1st time here in your blog..I came from PapaJon’s blog..
    Actually kan, you are not alone in this…Me also selalu telepas my anger sama my kids..kesian dorang..
    Hope after this we can be more patient kan..all the best to us…

  7. jppmom
    28 Jun 08
    10:43 am

    @jess -

    haha…agreed with chinnee..Sometimes I really get angry with my only daughter.. but after that, really feel so guilty

    jess- ya, feel really bad after that right? btw, thanks for dropping by ;)

    @Shemah -

    Hi mamaJ!

    Sorry long time didn’t drop by.. anyways, I just read the link over at papaJ’s blog. Aduiii.. sedih nya my hati .. I am guilty of this too.. kadang2 kalau marah tu ikutkan hati terlampau sampai hati anak tu ndak sedar sudah, how painful it must be for my Buddy sometimes. And then they are sooo forgiving lagi. We say sorry immediately they say it’s okay..

    Thanks for the eye opener.. I really needed to read that..

    Shemah actually it was an eye opener too me …now I understand how our parents last time kan ;)

    @kaDusMama -

    Hi Jppmom..
    My 1st time here in your blog..I came from PapaJon’s blog..
    Actually kan, you are not alone in this…Me also selalu telepas my anger sama my kids..kesian dorang..
    Hope after this we can be more patient kan..all the best to us…

    kaDusMama-hi!thanks for dropping by :) yalah..it is just NOT easy to be patient kan :(

  8. HN
    30 Jun 08
    9:34 pm

    Hihi, drop by your blog by accident but found such a meaningful post! Thanks for sharing your thoughts and I felt exactly the same too! Never really appreciate what our loved ones have done but take for granted everything they do … Hehe, thanks for slapping my head too!

  9. jacss
    01 Jul 08
    3:46 pm

    i left this same comment for papa……..after reading his post referred by u!!

    “both u & papa ….despite saying yrselves terrible & bad…i still find u both loving!! and d photo of yr 3 kids in the bb cot really made me speechless…..”

    yes, i agree we need to reflect & be reminded sometimes on how important our family is to us… thanks for reminding me!!

  10. Cay
    03 Jul 08
    3:44 pm

    Odoi I also like that ..will show my anger to my daughters ..but after that will cry in front of them too ..feel guilty bah and kesian with them too..but at least this will teach me to be more patient next time.