Memory?yes I have a lot of memories….good and bad…but one thing that I don’t have is the memory of my mother who passed away when I was just a baby…yes, it’s been 30 years she left and how sad to say, I don’t have any memory of her. It hurts just to think about it and yes…as I was typing this, my eyes filled with tears….tears of sadness for not knowing my mother, for not having the memory with her…not a single one.
Each year this time around, I’ll be busy asking my sisters and brothers how does our mother look like?is she a loving and caring person?is she pretty? is she a good cook? is she a good mother? and on and on until my siblings will ask me to stop asking coz it hurts to talk about her, they say. Why it hurts?coz they have too many memories with her whereby I don’t have any. Should I be glad that I don’t have any?No…definitely the answer is no…but I can’t turn back the clock, she’s gone and been gone for long time already.
My sister just called me this morning reminding me that today is our mother death anniversary….her 30th Anniversary. She reminded me to pray for her and man…..I can’t help my tears from falling now…missing her so much and wishing her still alive but yes, I know it won’t happen…gosh, I really wanted to write more about her but I must stop before anyone sees me crying….thank God, my boss is away on a holiday…wish I can share with you all my mother’s picture but I don’t have any in my possession.
Will share with you all once I got a copy of it. Mom, I miss you so much. Wish you can see me now and your grandchildren…God bless you always mom and we love you now and forever……. 
This is for you mom…may the angel be able to bring the flowers to you safely…
adui.. ina..
so sad. mind you, i also wish she is around to be with you.
i am sure she can see you and your family. she sure is proud with you, being a mother and a wife. Keep her in your daily prayer and i am sure she always there with you.. giving you advice.. you might not see her.. but you feel her.
i can feel your heart…as my eyes just filled with tears while i reading your post..
i really understand your feel…cheer up!
i miss my grandma too. So i know how u feel. I was trying to choose pics of him to develop and i saw how much he has grown in these couple of months and i wished that grandma was hereto share it with us.
Okay bye. And take care.
Now i wanna go cry pulak…Uwaaaaaaaa
Yes. Memory is just a memory. Whether it’s good or bad but it will lingered forever in mind. It’s very painful to lost a loved one but you have all the love from your Brothers and Sisters until today and the days to come and especially from your Grandmother before she passed away. Steady girl.
I understand the feeling of losing someone tht is really meant so much in our life …while reading ur post ..i too feel the same thing ..remembering and imagining for the loved ones tht already leaved us behind ..keep her in ur prayer & she will always be near to u & ur family.