Gosh…I really feel tired this morning.  I can’t hardly open my eyes but I forced myself.  What to do, I’m working today. As I was getting ready, my twins greeted me with their cry (manja punya cry). I leave them to cry for awhile while I’m rushing to finish my dressing.  Hubby still taking his sweet time taking bath and I have to remind him that I’m getting late to work.

Bring the twins down and let them play with their grandparents while I drink my coffee. By this time, my head began to ache.  I just ignore it.  Hubby finished dressing and off we go to the nanny place.  It breaks my heart everytime I send them to the nanny.  I feel guilty for not being there to care for them (I never stop praying that one day I will be able to quit my job and be a full time mom to my children). Walking out from the door, my heart already missing them.

I never know that being a mother is a tough responsiblity until I become a mother myself. It’s nothing like a 9 to 5 job that I have. Totally not the same. Don’t get me wrong. I love being a mother. I have three prince, the eldest is 3 years five months and my twins is 2 months 20 days as at today.

Being a mother is not easy especially there’s no one around the house to help you out. But, I considered myself lucky. My hubby helps me around the house and also with the kids whenever he can. My hubby do not trust maid to take care of his children so we do everything ourselves.

I really salute my late mum who raised the six of us without complaining.  Well, I learnt from my siblings that my late mum never fails to teach them about  love.  I do not have the chance to get know her or feel what my other siblings had because she died when I was only 1 year old.  However, growing up without my mother’s love doesn’t leave my heart cold because I was brought up in a loving family (my grandma and my siblings never stop showering me with their love).

Last night was the night for me to remember.  My 3 years old son requested me to read him a bed time story.  I have been trying to read him a bed time story for a very long time without any success.  He either won’t listen to me or just take the book from me and close it.

 But last night was different.  As we go to bed that night, I asked him if he wanted me to read him something.  I’m just trying my luck actually and oh my! He answered me YES! and the most wonderful thing happened in the same time, my little prince, Preston (his twin Presley was fast asleep with the father) was listening to me as well.  Oh boy, no words can describe my feeling that time.  Half way reading, both my sons fall asleep and this bring tears to my eyes.

After my hubby gets me this blog, I do not know what to write or what to share with you all. He keeps on asking me to do blogging and I keep on telling him that I do not know what to write or share. He says I can write anything I wanted. I can share about my hobby, my kids, my daily routine, my family or even about him. Hmm that the problem, I don’t know how and where to start.

As I was typing this, I still don’t know what should I write, what to share, how to begin and so on. But being a good wife, I follow my hubby’s advice. Just type what I feel like to type, share what I feel like sharing and that is exactly what I’m going to do. In order for me to be able to type something here, I will treat this blog as my “diary” but different type of diary. A diary that everyone can read and share…..

Hi there? Today as at 3pm, the blog of JPPmom is alive!